The other day my youngest kids were sick, I didn't have much to do during the day, and I pretty much sat around staring at my phone or holding crying kids (or begging them to sleep, because they didn't believe me that a well-rested body can heal itself faster).
By the end of the evening, I was a wreck. I was screaming at Colton because he wouldn't stop playing with the lights (WHY IS THAT SO FUN????) and I was practically crying over how miserable my life was.
When I wrote in my journal that night, it began to hit me just how much time I'd spent on my phone reading about despicable people, because I am a complete sucker for headlines such as, "The 15 Worst Roommates Ever: You won't believe #4!" and dumb stuff like that. I'd also discovered a tumblr page of terrible advice written to horrible people and gotten sucked into reading page after page of it...
I realized that my mind felt yucky after a day like that. It was just like when you have those days where all you eat is junk food and then your grossed out by yourself. But in my head.
I resolved to keep my distance from the internet the next day-- no facebook and no blogs. (I did allow email and reading Dear Abby. I'm only human, after all!) And I had a much better day. And I didn't hate my life. I didn't scream at my kids (even when they were playing with the light switches).
Lesson learned. Again. And probably not for the last time, either (sigh). I have real books to occupy my mind. Push facebook back a bit. And avoid clickbait like it's the plague.
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